My Other Self

Earlier this afternoon, I was watching an episode of Jane Eyre (it is an ok series), and one of the male characters was talking to the woman he loved, telling her he wanted to marry “his other self.” That he wanted to marry her.

I thought that was an interesting phrase to use, when talking to someone you love. But, I kind of like it. Although, not everyone finds their “other self.” A lot of the time, not the first or second time. It may take a while to find “yourself.”

As for me, I haven’t found my “other self” yet. I am still waiting for the one, but I am not in any hurry right now. Although, I am getting older, and would love to be in a relationship. But, I’m not going to rush it. It will come when it comes. I won’t go into a relationship just because I am anxious to be in one.

I want to be completely ready for it. And I think I am. I can’t wait for it to happen, whenever that is. I love the thought of being a girlfriend, and then a fiancee, and then a wife, then a mother. I can’t wait for all this to happen, in that order!

Well, that’s all for now. More to come later.

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For the Very First Time

For the very first time, both of my cats lied on my lap at the same time. It was weird, but cool. Most of the time they cleaned each other, which was interesting to watch.

This is why I love having pets. They keep you company as well as keeping each other company. And they do things that make you laugh or smile.

I love watching my cats interact with each other. They play fight, lay next to each other, clean each other…they basically love each other. It’s sweet. I am so glad they are a part of my family, as they have been for the last year and a half or so.

I hope they will be with us for a long time.

Well, that’s it for now. More to come later.

Fall Fun

Earlier this afternoon, I went to a fall fest at a local community college. It was pretty fun. They had a pumpkin patch, a couple mazes, face painting, food, jewelry making, and other things. I was able to get a pretty good size pumpking, that’s in good shape. I can’t wait to carve/paint it for Halloween!

I haven’t been to school in a while, for personal reasons, so it was weird being at school again and not going to classes. But I had a good time. My dad had said he may go to it next year. I think he would like it, if he went.

I absolutely love fall. The changing colors in the leaves, the cooler weather (especially since the heat wave we had for about half the summer), the festivities going on, and the decorations popping up..

I haven’t decided if I’m going to dress up for Halloween, but I will probably give out candy. I love seeing all the costumes the children wear. I remember one Halloween where a boy dressed up as a candy vending machine. It was awesome!

Well, that’s all for now. More to come later.

Wishing on a Wedding

For the last several days, I have been looking at wedding ideas on Pinterest, and it is making me wish I was getting married.

Even though I don’t even have a boyfriend yet. I am getting closer to 30, and I really want to be in a relationship before then.

After my mother died in 2010, I thought about doing some sort of tribute or something like that, to remember her at my wedding.

I haven’t been thinking too much about the big day, but I want to have the wedding at my church, and the honeymoon in Hawaii.

I have always wanted to go to Hawaii, so that’s why I want to go there for the honeymoon.

Seeing the ideas on Pinterest is inspiring me to think about my future, and what I want to do. Right now, I’m not really doing anything to prepare for my future, and I feel bad about it.

I want to finish school (Hospitality/baking and teaching/teacher’s aide), get a job, move into my own place, and then figure out what to then.

I really need to get myself going with the first step in all of this, but I don’t have the motivation. I don’t know what to do. But, I’ll figure something out. Hopefully soon.

I am nervous about all that I need to do, but I am excited to get going. I want to do my part in the community, and the world, and I can’t wait to get started. I hope my friends and family will support me in what I want to do.

Even though I really, really, really want to get married, I know it won’t be for a while, and at the moment, I’m ok with that. There are other things I can do, while I wait for my time to come to get married.

Well, that’s all for now. More to come later.