For the past few weeks, I have been wanting to go back to school. I have been away for more than a year, and I am really ready to go back. When I was in school last, I was going for my Hospitality degree, focusing on baking.
Lately, I’ve been debating doing a double major, with Hospitality and Special Education. I want to be both a baker and a special education teacher. I absolutely love baking, and children (not necessarily in that order!), so why not go to school for both?
There are a few things stopping me from going back to school. One: money. I don’t have a job, so I can’t pay for classes, and other school expenses, myself. Although, when I went before, my parents paid for everything. Then, I didn’t mind for a while. Now, I really want to pay myself.
I know there are scholarships and all that, but the process of getting them is long, and can be difficult. I really wish I had a job right now, so I can pay for things myself. It’s all so frustrating right now.
Another thing stopping me: a counseling restriction. I have no idea what it’s for, and it’s preventing me from signing up for any classes. I can’t do anything until that is fixed. And to fix that, I would have to go to school. And to go to school, I would have to take the bus.
The school is about 4 miles away, and I don’t have a license yet to drive myself there. That’s another thing that’s preventing me from going back to school. I’m ready to get my permit again, and to practice driving. Hopefully, by the time I do go back to school, I can drive myself.
Then I wouldn’t have to depend on others, and possibly be late to class. And I would be really, really happy then. But until then, I have to have others take me places.
Another thing preventing me is my shyness. I don’t like/feel comfortable talking to people I don’t know. And I want to get over that. I really hate not being able to talk to people like I want to. Although, with the classes I took so far for my Hospitality degree, which required some talking (of course), I hardly did any talking and I did well in them (straight A’s!).
Although, there are a couple classes, at least, that require a lot more talking and interaction, which I am very uncomfortable with. And that stinks. I hate being uncomfortable. Especially with speaking. Which is why I wonder why I really want to be a teacher. I would have to do a lot of speaking.
And because I’m so shy, I prefer texting, writing, and blogging. Although, I suppose that if I was more outgoing, I would still like those modes of communication. Writing is my favorite way of expressing myself.
Anyway, I am hoping to go to school to get everything sorted out, so I can go back to school. I’m actually looking forward to going back to school, surprisingly. I hadn’t always done well in school, so I didn’t like school because of that. But now, I’m liking school more now. So, I’m excited. But I’m also anxious, because of all that I have to do to go back.
But, we’ll see what happens. Hopefully, it’ll all work out for the best. I’m going to look at scholarships and grants when I get my schedule sorted out, so I don’t have to worry too much about paying for school. And maybe even look at the work/study program, as well.
Well, that’s all for now. More to come later.